Spring Now...

Spring now...the leaves return...like the cliches used to evoke rebirth and all that shit...I'm not going into that here...to me, it's just a culmination of a year of taking pictures of the woods in the back...it was vital this year because I was able to get the winter which I had lost last year when the hard drive failed...so now I have a complete cycle of the changes in the landscape and light...yeah, right madness...for sure, you're right...but the beauty and this is no cliche that I experience from this is immense and it's my beauty, within me, not dependent on anyone and not needed to share with anyone...why write?...the process of putting down words makes it REALER FOR ME and just that more precsious....I think I'm done being bitter about friends not appreciating what I do for them which is a big relief and I'm done about no one giving a shit about the show or the websites...they are my jewels and as I wrote decades ago, they are aquaducts to my being so I am stepping out of the clown role folks...I am going to enjoy the fact that I have an unbelievable memory and that I can sustain concentration memory...I have no control over the lack of focus individuals in this world exhibit and I have no control over a world addicted to image and celebrity but I do have control over my expression such as the juxtapositioin I can create by posting pictures from the winter..

as you see the contrast is vivid and in that juxtaposition comes a great aesthetic truth...
yep, big thoughts I know...who needs them?...I'm sounding like a two bit southern preacher out of an Eudora Welty or Flannery 0'Connor short story and others who point the finger and stepping into the rhetorical mode of you and pointing out what's wrong with you so I hope to get away from that..I've got nothing to point out...the minute I do so I lose the zen like the cool breeze that is blowing on this here Mother's day and the magic of the light that dances on the now pregnant forest...